Down

During any injury recovery there is always a few 'down' periods. When you lose sight of the end of the tunnel. You can't see things ever improving, ever getting back to where they were. It is sort of depressing that I have been injured enough to know that.

Even though you know these down periods will happen, they are hard to avoid. It is very difficult to be positive all the time, particularly when even the simplest training is difficult.

Today is one of those down days.

If I am honest, it isn't all the injury. I am back at work today after having 10 days off and so a large part of what I am feeling is probably a super-sized case of Mondayitis. Things always see worse when there is lots to do. Plus I wasn't able to train today which means I didn't get my morning dose of endorphin, which makes a bigger difference than you might think. On top of all that the swelling I mentioned yesterday is also playing on my mind. Training had been going so well and now this has hit my positive outlook out of the park. The swelling hasn't really improved from where it got to yesterday and I can't stop myself worrying about it. I have an appointment with my surgeon tomorrow to get a conclusive diagnosis and a way forward. I had spoken to the GP yesterday which gave me great peace of mind and I strongly suspect what she told me is correct, however, when I found out that I could get in to see my surgeon on short notice I figured I would be crazy not to. This will give me definitive boundaries as to what I can and can't do, which I know I need.

With the return to work etc I am not all that surprised that I am feeling the way I am and so I am not particularly phased about it. It just happens sometimes during rehab, part of the process. I know that after a good night's sleep, some exercise in the morning and the doctor's tomorrow I will be back on track and raring to go.