A Place to Start

Today has been another interesting one. I suspect that is going to be the new norm for a little while.

The last 24 hours has contained a lot of pondering and a bit of exercise, occasionally at the same time.

The more I have pondered the more I have become comfortable with the idea of the catheter ablation. There are numerous reasons why I have become more comfortable, but I think these are some of the main ones:

• It is a fairly common, reasonably low risk procedure. It isn't a guaranteed success, but it seems like something that is worth trying. 
• With the ablation I might be able to return to intensive training, or I might not, that seems like a bit of an unknown at the moment, some level of activity seems likely though. Without the ablation exercise is still possible, but severely restricted. I am not sure how I would go getting through the rest of my life on severely restricted exercise. 
• Even if racing Ironman as a pro goes out the window, there are still so many challenges that I would love to attempt, which seems unlikely without some form of treatment.

So that is where I am currently standing. Try the ablation and see what it gets me. I like a good plan and when I read that last sentence it doesn't feel like much of one. However, I think it is all I am going to get at the moment, so it will have to do. 

What if the plan doesn't get me the result I want? Well, one thing I can say without a doubt is that if the ablation doesn't work, or it doesn't get me the result I want, I will be stepping back and easing off. I have done enough thinking over the last few days (and chatted to enough people) to understand that life is short and full of many important things. I will not be endangering any of that to try and 'push through' if I don't have absolute assurance that I can do so safely. 

I don't write the above as a resignation or an acceptance of retirement, that truly isn't my Plan A, but more an acceptance of a possible reality. Preparing myself mentally for a possible eventually I guess. 

We shall have to see what the future brings. For now, I truly don't know what it will contain. But I have a plan and that is not a bad place to start.