A good problem

A little bit of a tired, grumpy day today. Not that I slept badly last night. After my blog yesterday I was careful to make sure I was in bed nice and early. Just an early morning and probably a bit of sleep debt coming into play today. Means I am finding things a bit more annoying that they are and I am feeling just a little bit flat at the moment. Low on the motivation levels.

I should get a chance to catch up a bit more tonight and be ready and raring to go for running tomorrow.

Feeling a little bit of stress too, but for unusual reasons. Trying to think of a way to write this without sounding like a 'pro triathlete' douche. Non specific generalisations to come.

I have the opportunity to replace some gear coming up soon. I have a couple of options, both of which are good. One option will help out people who have been very supportive of me over the years. The other option is probably better for me, certainly the choice I would go for if all other considerations were ignored. So the decision I am faced with is do I do the right thing by people who have supported me, or do I do the selfish thing and do the right thing by me. When you read it the responsible choice seems quite clear. Perhaps it is. But if I do the right thing by others, will I then resent it later. I don't want to waste time with gear that isn't right for me. I don't have the time to waste. With the season coming, a big part of me just wants to have everything sorted and correct and get on with it. Perhaps it is a good problem to have, but it is always playing on my mind and stressing me out a little bit. Annoyingly it is something I can't resolve right now either, so it is going to keep annoying me for a little while.

You see, getting supporters and some sponsors seems like a great thing (here comes the douche bit) and on the whole it is. However, the flip side that others often don't realise is that with that support comes obligation. Or at least it should if you do it right. That obligation means that you can be restricted in what equipment you can use. Triathlon is a great sport because people are always making new products. Some of those products are a bit average, but lots of them are great. However, if you are sponsored by somebody and they aren't making those products you can find yourself a bit stuck using second tier stuff. It can be a frustrating experience. Some people will take that chance to jump around sponsors, to chop and change. However, I think that is a very unprofessional approach. Loyalty counts for a lot. However, it can bring with it frustrations.

Anyway, first world problems as they say, made worse by a bit of tiredness. Some sleep tonight and I am sure the world will look a lot rosier in the morning.